Unbidden
What do you think, Lord, as you watch this scene
Fear running riot in my heart
The visions of yesteryear finally seem
In darkness, to break me apart
He hurt me and those pictures flash through my head
Unbidden, they drown me tonight
Feelings persist that I wish I was dead
If only to have no more sight
Echoes of childhood cry out to You, Lord
But only the silence replies
No explanation of things so untoward
That my life was filled with his lies
Now I am trying to stand up and speak
The truth of what happened to me
But I trip on a lifetime of being meek
In attempting to finally be free
Lord, I believe You were with me back then
I only survived with Your help
I know in my soul how blessed I have been
But tonight I am walking through hell
Maybe tomorrow, I will know You are close
I'll feel Your love with great ease
Until then, I choose to remind myself most
Of Your promise one day I'll have peace