S.O.S.

It’s only part
It’s not the whole
I told myself today
It doesn’t mean I’m sliding back
Or that I’ve lost my way
I could hate myself
But that would mean
Patterns stay the same
I want more in life
Than broken dreams
I need to see a change
What do I do
When something deep inside me
Screams no more
Trying, being, living life
I’m slamming shut a door
For reasons I don’t understand
My mind wants me to die
My heart struggles to keep up
And comprehend the why
This doesn’t have an easy fix
Or steps I know to take
With every breath
I try to fight
And silently I pray