One Way Out

I quit!
I'm done!
Get the hell out of my head!!

But visions of him hurting me
Attack me instead

There is no rest
There is no silence
There is no damned way out

Everything screams
this will kill me
Beyond a shred of doubt

I lost myself to him today
He finally won this game
All I see is what *I* did
How I was to blame

"My Fault!" SCREAMS
the only voice that
I can hear
I set the stage for everything
That is now quite clear

I was there!
How could I have
not fuckin said NO?!?
But his touch was kind and gentle
Unexpected, soft, and slow

I screwed myself before he did
By silencing my voice
But when he pulled my panties off
I didn't have a choice

I don't care what people think
He may not have been grown
But 5 year olds aren't made for sex
A fact he should have known

And scissors -

SCISSORS!!! -

in any world
aren't made to go
Inside
By the time we reached that point
It was too late
for me to hide

I won't go on
I cannot deal
I will not even try
If stuck reliving terrors past
I just want to die