
I Always Will
For those of you who don't know
It can make you lose your mind
To remember something clearly
But deny it at the same time
Not 20/20 memories but
I've never said they are
Sometimes flashes of knowledge
Can take your insight far
Because of what I've seen
I'll admit this to be true
I've examined it from all sides
I know I was abused
Truth can be a weapon
Sharper than a sword
Be careful when you're using it
At whom you point it toward
Some accidents may happen
As you find your way
That make you doubt your feelings
Each and every day
I didn't know how to cope
Feeling under attack
Those vivid pictures in my head
I begged God -- take them back!
So I denied it happened
And fought the scenes inside
Tried to make them shrink away
In hopes that they would hide
But the truth is static
It does not change its role
Because it is too painful
Or scary for my soul
A long lifetime down the line
I believe it still
And contrary to all attempts
I think I always will
